four letter name

a cauldron of love and disguise - my body. 

hush hush 

do not speak of it

unofferable to anyone but you. My lips

melted on your pale skin

you cannot take that away from me: 

not the traces left 

as my fingertips sank into your 

heart. 

your coldness bewildered me: 

a grey statue, ghastly and bloodless. 

I handed myself to you

like a newborn baby to its mother

pure 

a miracle 

in its own right. 

I want

to forget this dumb story 

lived by maudlin lovers

tearful dumb eyes. 

I want to forget but my foolish heart will not hear of it. 

every day, it spells your name: short and sharp 

an engine 

on and on, almost a chant 

your name spluttered with every breath I take - in and out. 

the faces of strangers drop like stones

and turn into your face: impeccable and white. 

like a mad medusa 

I cling to you still. 

I carry with me a meager, silent kiss on the back of my neck - 

your last act of love. 

There have been seventy five days since.