Unremarkable
It is so small, untouched by the world and still unbroken
Only
your meticulous fingerprints are carved on it -
I cannot obliterate such crucial evidence.
I cannot mend the aching lacerations that you made,
I cannot annihilate the marvel of yesterday
the illusive prospect of a better life.
What a fool, what a fool:
bedbound broken and blank
my fat read heart is saturated
I am unmistakably exhausted.
The world is crushed with such tragedies: nothing new, no miracles.
Soon you will forget the vanilla girl with nothing to offer but words and colours
clinging to you like a mad leech,
a vampire yearning for love.
I am that girl no more: dried up like a dead plant
empty, empty and yellow
But my soul is sheltered inside the glass jar,
incapable of love, refusing to forget or to heal
condensed like a fist, quivering.
I shut my eyes, I cannot bear this interminable winter, so brutal
it stripped me of all I had, it wiped out all the battles I won,
it destroyed the footing I built for years and years and years.
All it left is an imprint of all I was before, enclosed in
the same skin and the same bones
but unsaveable and soulless.
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