Drown
I have never been close to the sea.
Always black, always distant and fickle
always spitting the dead corpse of a fish,
or a knot of algae and weedy greens.
I have always been scared of veils.
The sea, with her unstable cloak, her great facade
concealing creatures and stories;
unforgiving, swallowing all that comes in her way.
All that she offers me are knifelike stones
that carve the ball of my feet, a trail of blood diffusing in the sand.
And yet, I do love her.
I come every night like a bewildered noctambulist
and listen to her vehement dance that grasps my ankles,
her submissive waves shattering against my body.
I do not surrender; I hold onto the ground and absorb the pain, the frigidness
that she hails me with.
I always come back, defeated and frightened
to find some sort of consolation in her.
She is my only proof that I am not numb.
Tonight, I will let go.
My fingers, desperately clutching at the erratic sand will unravel
and my feet will allow the algae to bind me with the sea -
an inexhaustible matrimony.
The crevices and the cracks are no longer empty
as she fills me up with salt and water.
I longed for this all my life: for this indisputable love, this ardent treatment that no one offered
but her.
I dissipate and dissipate
as I become one with the sea.
Soon, she will spatter me out too
like a dead fish or a fossil
whose remains will erupt into a new life, raw and unbroken.
Endings, too, can be remarkable.
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